Training is retarded.

I believe these past two days we've done things that personally, I think I could have figured out on my own in two hours. Not even.

Now I know that I expect way too much of people especially when on computers as working on them is my forte, but come on. I really don't see how some of these people passed the Windows Literacy test. Maybe they're not used to working with more than two applications open at once, I don't know. I really don't care.

I know that I shouldn't be bitching when I'm getting paid almost $10 an hour to sit around and become overly familiar with it, but I'm fucking bored. I think that today our trainer allowed us almost an hour OVER worth of breaks than we're supposed to take. The shitty thing is that when you go on "breaks" you log out. When you log out (as I understand it,) your pay stops. I don't want to fucking sign out four or five times a day when I'm only supposed to get two plus a lunch. Rediculous. Note to self, training would be a kick ass opt-out once I get out of training. Looks like easy money and it's 8 weeks off the phone at any given time.

Either way, I'll just be glad when Friday rolls around and I don't have to wear some fucking polo shirt. I hate polo shirts. Fuck I hate polo shirts.

Just to clarify:
Training sucks, need to become a trainer, breaks suck, easy money, fucking polo shirts.

I think I finally have everything ready for work. Car is washed, vacuumed, new clothes worn in (somewhat,) got a bookbag (I miss school lol) to carry all my shit around in, hell, I even bought frozen dinners to bring for lunch. The only thing I'm planning on doing tomorrow is relaxing, so if anyone has some ideas I'm game. It's also time for me to go buy another spindle of CDs to get ready for my backup regime. Fun, fun.

For anyone that might try to get ahold of me, I'd suggest either looking me up on AIM as the0taku1, or now under GoogleChat (internet phone service FREE btw) under my GMail account toshikazu.fukunaga. Don't have GMail? Ask me here for an invite. Shit, this thing is a hell of a lot more clear than my cell, and I'm also more likely to answer lol. Just an FYI.

Today was a productive day.


JUST KIDDING!

The only thing that I managed to do today was get a massive headache, and then later on go buy a couple more polo shirts for work and a new watch (only to have to take the watch to a jeweler to get some links taken out later.) Could have been worse though, and somehow I managed to wake up right at 10:00. That's better than what I can say for Thursday, heh. I think I slept in until almost 3:00, but that was mostly because I like to sleep as much as humanly possible on my birthday every year.

As for the new job, for some reason they still have not recieved my background check; which worries me because I don't know exactly what's on the damn thing. I try to do good at whatever job I take up, but sometimes it just doesn't work out... And I'm good at recognizing the signs.

For example, after three weeks of working at IMA (some telemarketing thing out in VaBeach) about a year ago, I just stopped coming in. It was a high pressure environment, with "team leaders" behind you yelling at you to deliver your lines and make sales, while you have to fight with disgruntled (and might I add, unwilling) customers that want nothing more than to hang up on you. So yeah, I called them up one day near the end of my fourth week and told them that due to transportation issues, I'd no longer be able to work for them.

The other issue that might come up would be my short lived employment with Costco Wholesale. I really wish that I could have told myself to keep this job, but working in that bakery was killing me, literally. Some kind of chemical (or combination of, which is not only dangerous, but against health code) that they used in cleaning (not what I had in mind when I was told I'd be in packaging in the bakery) made me develop symptoms of what seemed like bronchitis, though right after I left they completely disappeared. Strange, huh? Either way, I called in three days in a row (couldn't help it) and after that I got the whole "we'd like to keep you coming in but we're running a business here and can't take a risk with someone who keeps calling in" line of bullshit. Really, too bad about that job though. Best paying job I ever had including this one... Oh well.

Damn, it's really sad cause now that I've thought about it... Other than days when I would be working this really has been a highly productive day. lol Welcome to my boring ass world.

Meh, so I'm 20 finally. I've hated these last few years, I don't feel like I've really gotten any older at all. I look the same as I did when I turned 18 (at least I'd like to think so, with the exception of that I used to be clean shaven in high school) and that means that I pretty much still look like I'm about 30. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not, but I'm sure when I turn 21 I'm not going to carded. At all.

Birthday was more or less boring, so in other words it was more or less perfect. The more or less (less of course) being that I had a headache and my stomach was bothering me all morning. The headache still lingers. Ugh, I hate having a headache. Fucking sinuses.

I guess I should probably lay down and try to start getting to sleep, as I'm going to need to start getting up much earlier than usual soon. Just glad that I'm not up till 4 AM anymore.

Just found out that I don't have to work for the rest of this week...


Okay.

That shit sucks, and there's no way around it. I would have prefered to work at least two days this week, but apparently it would be a hassle to keep me on payroll so I guess there isn't much that I can do in this situation.

I didn't ask for Monday off, and I didn't ask to work Tues (though I wasn't scheduled for that day and then was accordingly.) I was asked to take off Wed so a coworker of mine could get a few extra hours, so that left me with tomorrow (which I took off over a month ago just to be sure,) Fri and Sat for this week. So much for that idea. I could have probably started training THIS week instead of next. Now I'm more or less behind another week and though normally that wouldn't piss me off, but since I'm trying to go about making a big change here I'd appreciate it if people would help me out and stop fucking around with my schedule.

Since that won't happen, I guess I can just hope that this new job works out as well as I think it will. I've already got big plans, and all that needs to happen is this job pulling through in the way it says it will.

Also, I seem to be missing the remote to my radio in the car. I don't even know if they sell replacements, but if they don't I'm out of luck. I hate having to mess with the volume dial on the thing, just seems too sensitive. I guess I'll have to worry about this later. Got too much shit to do.

Not much going on today, just did some work on starting up a website for my godmother, apparently she's going to be selling jewelry online. Got something basic done today, going to work on a few other pages over the week since I'm not working till Friday.

I'm trying to pick back up on a little project I was working on a year or so back. I wanted to build a computer (not necessarily totally from scratch) that would be portable and could be put in (and taken back out) of my car. This computer would be pretty basic, I bought a small touch-pad (similar to the ones that comes built in to laptops to mount in my car, and I'm in the market for the rest of the parts. So yeah, if anyone has any spare parts hanging around I'd be more than glad to take them off your hands. WINK WINK But seriously, this thing could be done quicker than I'm hoping, I just need to get a power inverter. Anyway-


Gonna be 20 in two days. The fuck. I'm too young to be this old.

Ah, so I missed a day (technically two I suppose.)

But yeah, I've been trying to get things together to help me switch as easily as possible from Philly's to my new job. Also been getting rid of some of my older work clothes, as they're pretty beat up from the restaurant and I just don't feel like having something that worn out around. With my new pay I should be able to go out and grab some new stuff within a month. I figure, if I'm getting at least 350 a week, then first check goes towards car insurance and gas. (Anything left over goes into savings.) Next week, I'll pay off my credit card bill at least half, and the rest towards gas and savings again. Third, pay off some of what I owe my mom from when she covered my insurance while I was out of work. Last week's check, (just for the first month) will probably go into getting my car up to date on tires and everything.

Hooked up the speakers I picked up from that yard sale a couple of days ago. They're pretty decent, I think I might be hooking the other two up sometime soon if I can get out and remember to find the wiring.

Just a few days left at Philly's, and it seems like it came just at the right time. For the first time since I started working there, I actually felt that I couldn't stand it to stand in front of the grill. Looking down at it and having to lay tickets down just kind of pissed me off. We weren't even busy at all, I just guess that it finally clicked that this isn't what I should be doing with my time right now.

I hope that feeling is right.

I'm pretty sure that I haven't mentioned this yet on this blog, but anyone that really knows me can attest that I HATE waking up early. When I was still in school, I would have said that anything before 6:00 is early. Nowadays though, I hate being up before 9. I guess working at Yorgo's and having to be up at 4:00 made me feel this way, as I've been getting all the sleep I can since I left there.

I'm hoping that getting up early and working full time won't be anywhere near as tiring as all this restaurant bullshit is. I'm giving up part time for full, hot ass grill sections and fryers for air-conditioning, and roll tables and cutting boards for a computer. I'm doing what I thought would be the worst for me, and that's doing something that I like for a living. Hopefully this doean't backfire in my face and make things feel off every time I boot my computer up at home.

Either way, I'm sick of being in restaurants for now. The heat and poor hours, not to mention the fact that there's no way I'd be hired by one around here that would pay anywhere near as good as this job is. Right off the bat I may add: seems that my work experience, customer service contacts and computer training have made me a "promising" asset for these people. I type decent, and from what I understand did a good job on the "angry customer" roleplay assignment which my four weeks working in telemarketing I can say actually came in useful for once.

But yeah, piss test done, paperwork done, just need the results back in and I'm officially going to be making 9.85 an hour. One thing about that drug test though... I can't fucking believe they won't let you wash your hands after getting that. WHAT THE SHIT. I happen to have a slight case of OCD when it comes to having myself (and as with most people afflicted with it, my hands) clean. I can't stand not washing my hands if I do something that I believe merits washing, and that annoys my mom (who can't keep paper towels around me for that reason) but all the managers I've worked for in the kitchens love it, but I digress. HOW IN GOOD CONSCIENCE, BEING IN THE MEDICAL PROFESSION CAN YOU ASK SOMEONE TO USE A PEN FOR THE SAKE OF SIGNING DRUG TESTING CONSENT FORMS WITHOUT WASHING THEIR HANDS?!?! Even worse, HOW CAN YOU ASK SOMEONE ELSE TO DO IT RIGHT AFTER THEM!!

But yeah, I'm going to get some sleep hopefully before I go into work at 6.

I fucking rock. That interview went so smooth. I dunno what it is, I always get really nervous during interviews, but it's been a trend that if I get that far, I always get the job. I start work on the 28th, and will be in training for 8 weeks GETTIN PAID GETTIN PAID. 9.75$ an hour to take phone calls on faulty G.E. appliances. This is quite possibly going to be the best job ever.

Good things come to those who wait, are patient procrastinate.

Seems like me hating to change things has given me a serious opportunity. I got an in to a "Customer Service" call center not even 2 miles from my house. My friend Jimmel tipped me off (I OWE YOU ONE) about the place, since he signed up and is training (and his mom has worked there for a while as well) at the place for now. Good deal, train for a few weeks, get 9.75 starting, work from 11:30 to 8 weekdays. Looks like being a serious computer nerd pays off lol.

I hate typing tests, and today's could have went much better: 69 wpm with a 93% accuracy (I wish that I could've used the practice round one lol, 72 wpm with 95%) and I have a serious fucking beef with the "Windows Literacy" test they gave. 85% competence? Fuck that. I've been on computers since I was about 6 years old. That's damn near 15 years of computer use. I know damn near every keyboard shortcut and trick, and I'm even decent (though probably slightly rusty) in Linux, and DOS. Hell, give me a MAC and I bet I can figure it out no problem.

Irritation aside, today's been a good day. Looks like I'm finally going somewhere that people will recognize as a move on my part. I like what Randall said in Clerks II, and I feel strongly about it as well. "Sooner or later I'll do something with myself and make my mark. But until then whatever I do is not a waste of time, it's all building on something." So yeah, this might be my way into everything that I've been looking for. I can finally pay off the money I owe to my mom, get a new phone since mine sucks ass sometimes, get my car fixed(!!! No AC in the Summer here is unbearable) and be able to save for my store plans. Here's to hoping, and I'd really like this to pull through since it would be a big turnaround.

This week is off to a GREAT start
/sarcasm
It's more or less just a scheduling conflict, as in I was planning on being lazy and looking up more jobs online on Tues and Thurs, but now shit got flipped on me and I'm working those two days. Why? What difference does it make? Nobody has a court date this week, or anything else marked on the calendar that would merit a day off. Just the normal reminder, rentals due back, orders to be placed for rolls, etc. I was told that I would get those 4 days a week GUARANTEED. Im' not angry that two of my days were changed, I'm just worried that if they go back on their word for something small like that, what's to say that they won't start giving me only three days to work with?

I can't work enough here, but if I'm going to be looking for another job, I have to give 100%. People here don't seem to understand that. I like to give every possible moment to looking into a job and how it would affect my life (good and bad) and weigh the possibilities there. I'm not the best person at making decisions, I realize that. And it should be more than obvious to the rest of my family too. Being indecisive is what made me think that college right away would have been a stupid choice for me, and I hold firmly on that belief, since now that all the bullshit that was slowing me down and clouding my mind is gone now. Who is to say that if I had started going to school, that I wouldn't have had those same problems and screwed things up on a whole new level?

Either way, things are going to be changing soon. Whether it's good or bad overall, I don't really care. I'm kind of bored with this same day in, day out stuff. Well, I guess time to get ready for work.

This isn't going to be a normal thing, I'm sure of it. It's just either luck or some strange coincedence that I've been making (roughly) a post a day on this thing so far. And yes, that timestamp is correct. Somehow I'm awake at 6:00 AM. SIX OF THE CLOCK IN THE MOTHERFUCKING MORNING.

How, you may ask? I'd rather someone ask "why," but the only thing resembling what could be a serious response to that is someone out there hates me. I'm not religious by any means, but if there is a god somewhere, I'm sure he hates me so much that sometimes it makes his eyes bleed. Back atcha, big guy.

(http://www.loserzcomic.com/index.php?id=254 Link related because although around this time the art was kind of strange, Loserz kicks ass, and pic related with God's eyes bleeding OUT OF HATRED. I don't even want to think about how long I just put into finding this damn comic.)

This supposed "god's" personal vendetta towards me aside, this week has been pretty boring so far. Not that I'm complaining, I mean that in a good way. When things happen, they're normally bad, and I'd rather not have part in that. Just like that saying, "no news is good news," I'm more than happy with the slow reporting days. Just makes it less interesting to write about, though I've never bothered to try and make my blogs interesting, it does seem more bland reading it over than when it's actually happening.


Being up at 6 AM has it's downsides, other than the obvious one of missing sleep: I've discovered that while I wasn't looking someone bothered to make yet another Transformers series. Can we please just let them die, please? I remember growing up and waiting to watch Saturday morning cartoons, but I've taken a look at some of the stuff coming out lately and it looks like shit. Not even good shit, just sub-par, skim shit. Super concentrated, with no sign of preservatives or anything worthy of watching ever! STOP MAKING THE TRANSFORMERS LOOK BAD BY MAKING SHITTY ANIMEESQUE RIPOFFS THAT REEK OF A "FRIENDSHIP IS THE BEST THING EVAR" THEME PLEASE. Transformers is not Pokemon, there should just be robots beating the fuck out of each other for the good of mankind.

Enough of me ranting about shitty cartoons for today though, I think if I bother to keep finding ways to irritate myself this morning (lack of sleep not helping) then I may be able to bleed out of my ears on command sometime before noon.

Early Sunday here, and I just woke up for no apparent reason. Not a great way to "start" the day. Lately I've been going to sleep really late, well in the morning anyway. Today I happened to fall asleep by mistake, I was actually in the middle of a conversation, at least I'm pretty sure of this as the window was still up there when I awoke. But I digress, I'm going to be staying up all the rest of the morning and trying to force my sleep pattern back to something that won't make me sleep until noon everyday. This has worked before, I'm just hoping it'll work again. If not, I'm going to be seeing the doctor about maybe taking some sleeping aid for a week or so. That might help get me back on a decent schedule.

Not much going on, still waiting to hear from that guy in Hampton about possibly singing on that track for his CD, and still trying to decide whether or not I'm going to bother going to the open house at ECPI this week. I'd like to think of it as being flattering that they won't leave me alone, since they did say that my prelim. test scores were higher than "what (they're) used to," but I'm pretty sure they're this persistant with everyone that bothers to look into the school. I dunno, I guess sometimes I'm too big of a wuss to make a big change like that. After senior year and falling into that depression and screwing up all my plans for school, etc. I've found it kind of hard to get a plan that will get me where I want to go.

That would be to have my store open within the next 5 years, though at this rate I don't see it happening. I don't have great credit, I don't have management experience, I don't have startup capital, and I don't by any means have a location or even a general area that I'd like to see my dream finally come to fruition in.

Well, enough for now. I'm going to turn my music back on as loud as I can (given the early hour) and hope that my little sleep deprivation plan will work. More on me being a loser some other time.

Since MySpace is the anti-blog and Livejournal has proved irritating and unuseful, I've decided to give Blogger a try. Name's Tim, and since I don't think I'm all that interesting I guess I'll just leave this first post with that.